January 23, 2008

A Monastic Life – Part II

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I have to say, that although living among Buddhist nuns and following all their rules was slightly stressful, the experiences I had as a volunteer made the discipline worthwhile. During winter break, I was fortunate to be able to spend some time volunteering in the hospital founded by the Buddhist nun. The hospital was established in 1986 and it now serves as the only medical center in eastern Taiwan.

I truly looked forward to spending time as a volunteer at this particular hospital because of this hospital’s philosophy for treating patients. The hospital not only provides the standard medical care of any hospital, but also has a very humanitarian approach towards working with patients. The main buildings of the hospital, for example, are named “Great Love,” “Gratitude,” and “Respect.” In addition, the hospital typically has about 60 to 80 volunteers to assist patients in any way—from opening the door to talking with patients on their deathbed. The respect (manifested in the form of immense patience) that the doctors and nurses have for the patients was definitely noticeable.

I was placed to volunteer in the internal Intensive Care Unit (ICU). Many of the patients in the ICU were elderly people. And yet, there were also a few younger patients on the cusp of death. The stories behind each of these patients and their families constantly threatened to bring tears to my eyes. The time I spent wandering around the ICU and attempting to converse with elderly patients in my broken Taiwanese was emotionally loaded, yet inspiring. Prior to volunteering, I would have expected to learn more about medicine; instead, I came away with a newfound appreciation for family and a greater understanding of gratitude.

One family in particular resonated with me. The patient was a middle-aged man who was suffering from leptospirosis, a relatively rare bacterial infection. Due to his illness, he was too weak to move and his breathing tubes prevented from speaking—he was basically in a near vegetative state. Families and friends essentially have from 10:30 to 11 a.m. and 6 to 6:30 p.m. to visit patients in the ICU. Everyday, during these visiting hours, the man’s grown daughter and son would dutifully visit. Watching the interactions between a child and their sick parent was heartbreaking, yet uplifting, because there were other patients that never had visitors. Although the man with leptospirosis could not respond or display much emotion, his son and daughter would always bring family photo albums or a video of his grandchildren to show their father. For any person, socializing with an unresponsive person can be discouraging; yet the son and daughter spoke to their father with such sincerity and genuine love. When I initially began observing this patient, I honestly felt like there was no hope for him. Yet day by day, I noticed improvements. On the last day of volunteering, I happened to watch the man’s son wiping tears from his father’s face as he showed him family photos. Shed tears—that was all the patient could do to respond.

After a day at the hospital, I would return to the temple where I was staying and have dinner at exactly 6 p.m. During the evenings, the rest of the volunteers and I would typically watch about an hour of the evening news, have a short class on a Buddhist text, and then prepare for bedtime at 9 p.m.

About two days into my time at Hualien, one of the Buddhist nuns shared a piece of advice on how to be a good volunteer. She said, “You must remember to use your eyes to hear and your ears to see.” I have to admit that I still don’t fully grasp what this means, but I think it’s a reminder to observe fully all the people in suffering that you encounter and compassionately empathize. Although I myself am not Buddhist, I have to say that was advice I needed to hear (and incidentally, touches on the name of this blog!).

While flipping through one of the books at the hospital’s bookstore, I also ran across this aphorism: “Be grateful to those who receive your help, since they show you that life is impermanent and can be full of bitterness.” In general, people usually expect to be the ones who get thanked when volunteering—but I think it’s true, we should actually be the ones grateful to those that we can offer a bit of help. They remind us able-bodied people of how much more we can do for this world and help us realize that we are all surrounded by many blessings.